SPLIT
The day is long
And it’s a long way up
It’s a long way down
I’m very tired
When I wake up in the morning
When I’m spinning in the kaleidoscope of chemical delusions
Or sit in a kitchen chair the whole day
Trying to put all I feel into a sequence
Pushing motion
Fingers on the keyboard
Where we meet, where we split
I’m here for you
Even though I don’t know how to be
I’m here for you
Though I don’t know if I should be
Did I forget to touch your face?
Did I look away?
The divergence of my desires
Has me split
And I’m slipping in all directions
Through the cracks in my willpower
I’m falling
Recalling the purpose of my intentions
I’m trying to coalesce with the man in your mirror
To wear the stricture of your principles
The divergence of my desires
Has me split
OSTARA
The omniscient seeker
The virgin, the beast
Climb up higher to fall deeper
The double, the opposite
The darkest light
I will get you to the other side
The serpent, the doe
Maiden, mother, crone
Make your way into the circle
A deep breath and we begin
Sage, rosemary, myrtle
A new equilibrium
A havoc to awake from
Maiden, mother, crone
The omniscient seeker
The virgin, the beast
Climb higher, fall deeper
Nothing will ever cease
ADULTHOOD
Highlight the highs and the rest is shun
These are the ways it’s always done
Hitting up a few and then some
These are the waves we’ve become
Adoring stupor
Aberration
Rejection
Affliction
Friction?
Friction
I’m so tired
I’m so wired
I’m so wired
And a little bit tired
We share the carbon and the O2
The healthy hue
We share militant attitude
We share pictures too
We share adulthood
Time passes by but it feels the same
Pull up in your fast car whistling my name
We share adulthood
We share the ugly, the bad and good
We share adulthood
Heathen
Breathe in
We share pictures too
THE PYRE
Come alone, times are dire
I feed you now with your thoughts
Come alone, you’re admired
Don’t pretend that you’re not
Come alone into the fire
You’ll be free when it gets hot
It all went a bit haywire
Don’t act like it’s not your fault
Forlorn hope
The stakes are higher
And I am too busy to review your request
Little liar
NEMESIS UNBORN
scavengers
they say
keep yourselves at bay
clean your face, your name
I’ve come to dismantle your shame
bring me more
bring me more
I’ll have a pile to crawl upon
they will weep like before
nemesis unborn
scavengers
we fail
can’t keep ourselves at bay
look at my chameleon tail
so gentle, so fake
here’s your lord, here’s your foe
you’ll have a tomb to crawl upon
I’ll be gone
but there are more
nemesis unborn
bring me more
bring me more
I’ll have the world to crawl upon
they will weep like before
nemesis unborn
LIMBS ENTWINED
love
the cruel thorn
the pulsing horn
controlling
like a sultry shore
we’ve roamed before
unknowing
keeping up and biting through the tension
we slip into ascension
limbs entwined
don’t wake me
it’s rough
I’m drowning in a black pool of slime and waste
the time has an acrid taste
why wait?
why, wait
I don’t remember what you said
but you filled the room with your red
your red
DRIFTING
you’ve been around
collected some scars
still can’t do what you want
I skip and trip and drop out
I choose to find more doubt
don’t wait for me
I’m still drifting
don’t wait for me
I’m not sixteen
move on
this love is for one
move on
this love is for one
WHERE IS MY VOICE
as the first days of winter creep and strike
I rise, fuelling on my wound and my might
my wound and my might
I try to bury it deeper but a storm gathers flesh
it leaks out of my skin
now we’re out on the field of prey
can you show me how to wield a prayer
how to wield a prayer
creatures come, divine and purified
and I call for you in awe
I call for you with a mouth that’s new
but where is my voice
as the last days of summer drag the drab along
I fall, consumed by my wound and my might
succumbing to my spite
I call for you in awe
I call for you with a mouth that’s new
but where is my voice
in my wound and my might
REVELATIONS
the night of revelation
I’ve got someone to meet
I’m patient
lingering in the tropical heat
visions visions
are you the awaited apparition?
when all is said and done
the blood is shed
I take three steps on my own
then I lose my head
visions visions
you’re not the awaited apparition
SAD AND ALONE
the light flickers in the last window far far
you meet a man in the dark alley behind the bar
nothing good can come from this
you see, you see the edge of the abyss
what’s your name, miss?
why are you here, sad and alone?
am I no good for you?
I can show you
what can you show me?
wanna drink?
drink drink drink drink drink
nothing good can come from this
you see, you see
I’m on the edge of the abyss
sad and alone
NIOBE
I fell into the sea of righteous men
but it was all a dream
I stepped into a room of shapeless fear
but it wasn’t a dream
I walk to the morning sun
let the light come
I’ve held my head high
now here I lie
I let the life run
where are you, my pale one?
don’t stray
with all the words unspoken
all our dreams are broken
but I’m here with my doors and soul wide open
where are you, my pale one?
don’t stray
LOSING CONTROL
tonight I’m staying indoors
I think the weather’s getting worse
I’m too tired to lift my hand or fill my cup
and the neighbours won’t shut up
where are you now
I’m feeling kinda down
where are you now
but she’s in the bathroom
covered in foam
and I think I might be losing control
fuck no I’m losing control
I think I’m losing control
but then I let it go
(let it go)
NO CEREMONY
all the things I desire and hate
why they never fall upon me
and inspire me, reformat me
I’m protected by a grey orb
of the humdrum of an eventless life
I’m not here for the ceremony
but it’d be nice to feel something holy
alas, my phony self-irony comes too late
I mind my manners
they intoxicate
is there a party somewhere for us all
born and erased
here’s to no ceremony
let’s celebrate
my cerebral mate
what a fate!
let’s celebrate
let’s annihilate
my cerebral mate
let’s celebrate
HEAVY WORDS
a mouthful of blades
the ringing in my ear tastes the same
it’s not a big surprise
I’m fire, you’re almost ice
I shed my shielding fur
you’re wearing heavy words
dripping from the walls, falling from the ceiling
is it a premonition or is it just a feeling?
my face is dull, my heart is colder
dead little children clinging to my shoulder
it’s alright
those I like
I shed my shielding fur
you’re wearing heavy words
but those are right
those I like
is it all over now?
the curtain falls down
it’s not a big surprise
I’m fire, you’re almost ice
LIP LABOR
your savior will fool you
TRUE DEVOTION
idly blazing through the night
a ravenous road slitting a sore in your soul
gilded shadows unfold
gatecrashing you go
thirst separates you from your heartbeat
to bear the mark
to lie and swallow the potion
here comes the light bright
it’s a true devotion
no deliverance
you’re waylaid
now you’re the prey