SPLIT

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The day is long

And it’s a long way up

It’s a long way down

I’m very tired

When I wake up in the morning

When I’m spinning in the kaleidoscope of chemical delusions

Or sit in a kitchen chair the whole day

Trying to put all I feel into a sequence 

Pushing motion

Fingers on the keyboard

Where we meet, where we split

 

I’m here for you

Even though I don’t know how to be

I’m here for you

Though I don’t know if I should be

 

Did I forget to touch your face?

Did I look away?

 

The divergence of my desires

Has me split

And I’m slipping in all directions

Through the cracks in my willpower

I’m falling

Recalling the purpose of my intentions 

I’m trying to coalesce with the man in your mirror

To wear the stricture of your principles

 

The divergence of my desires

Has me split

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OSTARA

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The omniscient seeker

The virgin, the beast

Climb up higher to fall deeper

The double, the opposite

 

The darkest light

I will get you to the other side

The serpent, the doe

Maiden, mother, crone

 

Make your way into the circle

A deep breath and we begin

Sage, rosemary, myrtle

A new equilibrium 

 

A havoc to awake from

Maiden, mother, crone

 

The omniscient seeker

The virgin, the beast

Climb higher, fall deeper

Nothing will ever cease

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ADULTHOOD

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Highlight the highs and the rest is shun

These are the ways it’s always done

Hitting up a few and then some

These are the waves we’ve become

 

Adoring stupor

Aberration

Rejection

Affliction

Friction?

Friction

 

I’m so tired

I’m so wired

I’m so wired

And a little bit tired

 

We share the carbon and the O2

The healthy hue

We share militant attitude

We share pictures too

 

We share adulthood

 

Time passes by but it feels the same

Pull up in your fast car whistling my name

We share adulthood

We share the ugly, the bad and good

We share adulthood

 

Heathen 

Breathe in

 

We share pictures too

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THE PYRE

Come alone, times are dire

I feed you now with your thoughts

 

Come alone, you’re admired

Don’t pretend that you’re not

 

Come alone into the fire

You’ll be free when it gets hot

 

It all went a bit haywire

Don’t act like it’s not your fault

 

Forlorn hope
The stakes are higher

And I am too busy to review your request

Little liar

NEMESIS UNBORN

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scavengers 

they say

keep yourselves at bay

clean your face, your name

I’ve come to dismantle your shame

 

bring me more

bring me more

I’ll have a pile to crawl upon

they will weep like before

nemesis unborn

 

scavengers 

we fail

can’t keep ourselves at bay

look at my chameleon tail

so gentle, so fake

 

here’s your lord, here’s your foe

you’ll have a tomb to crawl upon

I’ll be gone

but there are more

nemesis unborn

 

bring me more

bring me more

I’ll have the world to crawl upon

they will weep like before

nemesis unborn

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LIMBS ENTWINED

 

love

the cruel thorn

the pulsing horn

controlling

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like a sultry shore

we’ve roamed before

unknowing

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keeping up and biting through the tension

we slip into ascension

limbs entwined

 

don’t wake me 

it’s rough

I’m drowning in a black pool of slime and waste

the time has an acrid taste

why wait?

why, wait

 

I don’t remember what you said

but you filled the room with your red

 

your red

 

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DRIFTING

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you’ve been around

collected some scars

still can’t do what you want

I skip and trip and drop out

I choose to find more doubt

 

don’t wait for me

I’m still drifting

 

don’t wait for me

I’m not sixteen

 

move on

this love is for one

move on 

this love is for one

 

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WHERE IS MY VOICE

 

as the first days of winter creep and strike

I rise, fuelling on my wound and my might

my wound and my might

I try to bury it deeper but a storm gathers flesh

it leaks out of my skin

 

now we’re out on the field of prey

can you show me how to wield a prayer

how to wield a prayer

 

creatures come, divine and purified

and I call for you in awe

I call for you with a mouth that’s new

but where is my voice

 

as the last days of summer drag the drab along

I fall, consumed by my wound and my might

succumbing to my spite

I call for you in awe

I call for you with a mouth that’s new

but where is my voice

in my wound and my might

 

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REVELATIONS

 

the night of revelation

I’ve got someone to meet

I’m patient

lingering in the tropical heat

 

visions visions

are you the awaited apparition?

 

when all is said and done

the blood is shed

I take three steps on my own

then I lose my head

 

visions visions 

you’re not the awaited apparition

 

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SAD AND ALONE

 

the light flickers in the last window far far

you meet a man in the dark alley behind the bar

 

nothing good can come from this

you see, you see the edge of the abyss

 

what’s your name, miss?

why are you here, sad and alone?

am I no good for you?

I can show you

 

what can you show me?

 

wanna drink?

drink drink drink drink drink

 

nothing good can come from this

you see, you see 

I’m on the edge of the abyss

sad and alone

 

 

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NIOBE

 

I fell into the sea of righteous men

but it was all a dream

 

I stepped into a room of shapeless fear

but it wasn’t a dream

 

I walk to the morning sun

let the light come

 

I’ve held my head high

now here I lie

I let the life run

 

where are you, my pale one?

don’t stray

with all the words unspoken

all our dreams are broken

but I’m here with my doors and soul wide open

 

where are you, my pale one?

don’t stray

 

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LOSING CONTROL

 

tonight I’m staying indoors

I think the weather’s getting worse

 

I’m too tired to lift my hand or fill my cup

and the neighbours won’t shut up

 

where are you now

I’m feeling kinda down

where are you now

 

but she’s in the bathroom

covered in foam

 

and I think I might be losing control

fuck no I’m losing control

I think I’m losing control

but then I let it go

(let it go)

 

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NO CEREMONY

 

all the things I desire and hate

why they never fall upon me

and inspire me, reformat me

 

I’m protected by a grey orb

of the humdrum of an eventless life

 

I’m not here for the ceremony

but it’d be nice to feel something holy

alas, my phony self-irony comes too late

I mind my manners

they intoxicate

 

is there a party somewhere for us all

born and erased

here’s to no ceremony

let’s celebrate

my cerebral mate

what a fate!

let’s celebrate

let’s annihilate

my cerebral mate

let’s celebrate

 

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HEAVY WORDS

 

a mouthful of blades

the ringing in my ear tastes the same

it’s not a big surprise

I’m fire, you’re almost ice

 

I shed my shielding fur

you’re wearing heavy words

 

dripping from the walls, falling from the ceiling

is it a premonition or is it just a feeling?

my face is dull, my heart is colder

dead little children clinging to my shoulder

 

it’s alright

those I like

 

I shed my shielding fur

you’re wearing heavy words

but those are right

those I like

 

is it all over now?

the curtain falls down

it’s not a big surprise

I’m fire, you’re almost ice

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LIP LABOR

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your savior will fool you

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TRUE DEVOTION

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idly blazing through the night 

a ravenous road slitting a sore in your soul 

gilded shadows unfold 
gatecrashing you go 

thirst separates you from your heartbeat 
to bear the mark 
to lie and swallow the potion 
here comes the light bright 
it’s a true devotion 

no deliverance 
you’re waylaid 
now you’re the prey